I'm working with a coach who insists my meditation practice needs changing. I don't like it. The proscribed posture feels awkward, the breathing technique makes me cough, and the closing mantra infers a concept of God I no longer believe.
So why on earth continue?
Because while it may not feel good physically or emotionally, intuitively I sense these are spiritual growing pains. In discovering I'm not as open and receptive as I think, I'm learning to be amused by stubbornness. The realization that I don't handle discomfort with nearly as much grace as I pretend, has me curious about what annoys me and why.
Sometimes we grow by being blessed and supported. Sometimes we grow by overcoming adversity. There are times, however, when we grow because we choose to.